Now, more than ever, we need to protect one another

“We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness,” Preamble to the Declaration of Independence.

I never thought I would fear the loss of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. I never thought I would lose my rights here in this country, taking steps backward after so much progress had been made for so many marginalized people.

I fear the loss of my healthcare, and disability aid because of the significant cuts planned as well as disability rights and access due to cuts in the ADA. I fear the loss of my rights as a woman to have healthcare access for my body. I fear discrimination and loss of rights as part of the LGBTQ+ community. I fear the loss of democracy in our country.

I fear for those I love, for trans people losing their rights to healthcare, and choices for their bodies, and facing increased discrimination and hate. I fear for immigrants facing the threats of deportation, discrimination, and racism when so many of them were doing everything they could to seek a better, safer life. Even those who are here legally, I fear discrimination and racism based on assumptions and fears.

I fear for my black friends who are already experiencing increased racism from people who now feel empowered in their hate.

I fear for the environment, that reductions in the EPA will put so many threatened and endangered species at risk when their futures are put in the hands of the whims of corporations wanting to build where they wish without limitation.

The list goes on, veterans losing their rights, schools losing funding. History not being taught, christian ideals forced on non-christians. Books banned.

The protections, rights, and programs that protected us are threatened to be stripped away by those who were supposed to protect us.

I’m not the only one fearing their rights, safety, freedom, and future being taken away in the next few years.

Over the past week, I’ve heard so many different responses and thoughts on the results of the election. At this point, it all goes beyond political differences when people’s very lives are threatened.

We need to fight for our rights as much as we can. We must protect one another, and stand up for one another especially those who are different from us. We must not excuse hate, discrimination, racism, and fascism. We must fight for the nonhuman species who will lose government protection. So now, more than ever, we need to protect and look out for one another.

For those who haven’t realized how much we are threatened, project 2025 lays it all out. Read it, educate yourself, but please take care of your mental health as you do. Please feel free to reach out, I am a safe place if you feel threatened and need resources, I’m here. We need to support each other now more than ever.

Writing Through the Fog

I want to write more but the mental fog, the burnout. It hurts knowing how much I love to write, how much writing means to me, and being too exhausted, in pain, and foggy to focus on it much at all. 

I know what my writing could be and maybe that’s part of what holds me back from writing the little bit I can. I fear my words and thoughts will come out jumbled. The thoughts get stuck and sometimes lost altogether before making it to the page. 

But I’ll try writing even though it may be jumbled, messy, and incoherent at times; at least I’m writing and that’s something. I’ll write in short jumbled snippets if I have to. So here it goes. You can follow along if you wish my writing may be messy but it’s me, doing what I can.

The Nature of Healing

“As I sit in the humid air, exposing my wounds, nature meets me, exposing her own wounds.”

An essay very personal and close to my heart had the honor of being published recently in the first issue of Mental Rhythm Magazine. They are a literary magazine that seeks to end the stigma around mental health, an issue I also care deeply about. So here is my very honest essay about some of my own experiences with depression and anxiety.

How Nature Helps Me as an Autistic Person

Being autistic means I am often overstimulated by my environment. Sounds that are tolerable to neurotypical people are disruptive, distracting, anxiety-inducing, and even painful for me. A few conversations happening in a room at once, music that’s too loud, or sudden noises are some sounds that are triggering. 

Other senses are also heightened for me. Flashing lights are disorienting, bright lights are painful, fast-moving images are disruptive. My senses of taste and smell are heightened and I notice things most people don’t and get easily overloaded by multiple or intense flavors or scents. Certain textures are very disruptive as well. For example, I can’t handle anything soggy. 

Normal life can be overwhelming when all these stimuli add together often causing me to be so overwhelmed that I have a meltdown or shutdown. I can’t focus, communicate, or function and pretty much freeze. 

Many autistic people have similar experiences with varying sensory sensitivities. 

I often get most overwhelmed being indoors because this environment is full of technology, people, and other stimuli that I am sensitive to, which all add up.

Because of that, nature has often been a relief for me from the constant sensory overload found indoors. Being outside, in nature, has brought calm and helped me out of meltdowns and shutdowns throughout my life. And I think that’s why nature has become so meaningful to me.

When I’m outside with plants and animals, I do not have to speak to anyone. I am free to rest and enjoy. Trying to verbally communicate my thoughts and feelings has always been a struggle. It uses most of my energy to verbally communicate, often leaving me overwhelmed. Then there are misunderstandings which is again exhausting when I spent so much of my energy trying to communicate. 

Plants and animals communicate in different ways. They communicate through body language and other nonverbal forms of communication, which makes it easier for me to relate to them because I don’t have to worry about trying to communicate verbally. 

In nature, I can just be. Plants and animals aren’t all talking at me, demanding things of me, they are also simply living and being. 

In nature, things are quieter. Yes, there are still sounds, but most of these are quiet and rather calming and peaceful, like the songs of birds or rustle of wind. Often they are simpler sounds just a few notes, compared to our indoor sounds that cover a whole range and can often be harsh frequencies or very complex and busy, becoming easily overwhelming.

In nature, life moves slower. Everyday life in a neurotypical society is often very fast-paced, we are expected to always be busy. Because of our sensitivities, autistic people can struggle to keep up with the demands of everyday life, which can lead to burnout if we keep pushing to keep up. We were meant to live life at a slower pace. Many animals and plants move at a much slower pace, spending most of their time resting, compared to their human counterparts. When I’m in nature, I slow down too, with all the plants and animals around me. I walk slow, I stop and watch, I sit and take it all in. 

These are a few of the reasons I find relief in nature as an autistic person. Being with nature helps me calm down and take a break from the many overwhelming sensory, social, and mental demands of everyday life. 

A Different Normal

What? No there’s no way you’re autistic!

You say it as if it’s a disease

But you seem normal to me!

Normal?

What’s normal to you is intolerable, painful

your bright lights

your loud noises

and conversations

and parties

make my head spin

my otherwise intelligent brain freezes

makes me panic

shutdown

curl in a ball

cover my head

hit my head

What is normal for you

requires coping strategies for me

quiet space

support for basic adulting

. . .

The complete poem appears in Magical Women Magazine Vol. 1 you can purchase it here and support this amazing group that gives voice to neurodivergent artists. https://www.magicalwomen.co.uk/